Beauty From Pain

I need to scream right now. It's all falling apart again. Half the time I feel like I'm uder water and I just can't breathe anymore. Everyone seems so far away even if I'm standing right next to them. If I try to say I think I need help my heart starts beating out of my chest, my head hurts, I feel like I can't move, and I'm like mute. It's so damn hard to fake it. I just want to scream until my lungs burst. Until someone hears me, realy hears me. I NEED HELP. I can't do this by myself anymore. I just can't do it period I guess. Everything seems to be getting worse, I sware everything I touch turns to shit. There have actually been days were I'm paranoid to touch anything.

Anyway.....
Moreeta and 'us' are still fighting. But I feel bad about it because it's not completely fair for us to freak on her for standing up for her friend. I DON"T KNOW!!!! uggg

Over and Under

Hello again.
How is hell my dear?

WoW is an uderstatement. I being the drama queen that I am got overly involved in the whole fight thing. But as suspected it wasn't just Robert and Pauls fault!!!! Ok so.....The knives were obviously just for protection. But Colton also had one or two but he handed them off then told the counselor about R&P's. Stupid Pansy. Then Colton only got 1 day ISS-I am so pissed..but nothing I can do. So Moreeta&Ashley are like bragging that Colton is so amazing when he is realy a douche bag extroudenair. So me,Kae,and Leanne freak out on Moreeta. But she like got upset and hurt(haha) then appoligized at the end of the day. I DO NOT FORGIVE YOU! See ya.
Oh wait almost forgot the best part!!!!!
Robert&Paul got 2 days suspension!!!!!!!!!!So they'll be back tomorrow or monday!!!! yay my buddies will be back!!! well minus jesse *sob*